October 19, 2009
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updated- photos added
I’ve had a busy week.
- I was in Lansing from Tue-Thu, and met Gloria
- Then Matt and I drove to a bed & breakfast in Ontario where we slept overnight and continued the next day on an autumn adventure through the province.
- Saturday was my graduation ceremony from York; I officially have my degree now
Honors Bachelor of Arts, Double Major Psychology & Music.- Pictures of all of these events are currently being uploaded to Flickr and I’ll post them here eventually.
Here are a few – most are on Facebook. If you havent found me there yet, message me
Matt drove home earlier this afternoon, and I went to a music healing/chanting evening with my usual chanting group.I love chanting… I get so lost in the music and the repetition, the ups and downs in the rhythm. And we have a viola player that I’m just in love with. Watching her play so intensely on her instrument is one of my favourite parts.
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I’ve been thinking lately about my moods, and how they go up and down so often, so intensely at times, and often for no real reason, or for reasons that shouldn’t really make sense. It makes me wonder sometimes if my “emotional regulation” is forever messed up from my parents, my bout with depression, etc. I just get into down, tired moods so often, and I wonder if it happens to “normal” people, or if I just have more mood swings than most. I often wish I knew how to regulate myself, especially when my irrational emotions come in contact with other people. (Matt usually gets the brunt of it, now.) I don’t know. I don’t want to give up my highs, which is what I feel would happen if I found a way to get rid of the intense lows. They’re two sides of the same thing, in a way… I don’t know if one can be gotten rid of without affecting the other.
I don’t know. I’m very tired. It’s almost 1 am and I should be in bed. I have class from 10:30 – 5:30 tomorrow, non-stop.
